| Whatever lets try this LJ thingie again |
[06 Feb 2007|11:23pm] |
Well things seem to be happening for the better and the good, I love life and am happy to be here on the planet earth. All my old friends Im going to be a hippie and concentrate energys of love, peace, and happieness toward you. I know for some of you things may not be going as planned but hey when you ask the universe for crumbling cookies... . I am no longer a stoner as i have been sober for a month now (woo hoo) I like it and have been reading books like "the way of the peaceful warrier" watching movies like "what the bleep do we know?" and "the secret", thinking about the universe down to the galaxy down to the solar system down to the earth down to the country down to the province down to the city down to the human down to the cell down to the electron and atom (or atom and electron) things like that help me to understand that I create what I want, and All I want is for me to be happy with myself and to thank all the people who have love and care in thier hearts. You all rock and are beautiful human beings with powerful spirits that grow everyday. And if your interested heres my life right now in point form.
-dating a super awsome fantastic girl named Alison
-working towards animation school in london (england)
-thinking of a TESOL thingie
-working with my dad installing cabinets and going to be working on the disney store soon
-living behind market mall
-eating proper meals, that i make (or Alison makes)
-hanging out with jeff when i can
-talking to my brother joey as much as possible (he is a warrier)
-working on being happy with myself and the universe (which i am, as well as grateful to the universe for being so)
anywho thats my point form
peace and love
stardog
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[28 Mar 2006|05:37pm] |
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So im at home now 5:30 the bus took so bloody long. But I checked out 2 apartment buildings for me and mark and soon the boardwalk apartment buildings on the internet so hopefully a producive day. As I look around and see the mess I may have to clean. And in saying that I like things tidy most the time thing is sometimes i need snap out of my little depressions which last for a little while where I dont care about nothing even myself which is sad but ok for now as I am able to see it in myself therefore I can fix it. Sorry just needed a rant and look at myself.
Umm so for moving I hopefully will have aiming for 1800 In the old bank account I wont need that much but its good to set goals. That only leaves me with a little spending money for the Pirate Party Im going too.
Need Info on Pirate Party leave a note.
I think I might dress up as pirates get cheaper drinks.(the things I do to save a buck)
Life is good
Waiting for a bus when a hot tanned 26ish woman pulls up in a clean unmarked van and asks me how to get to 16th ave, I told her how to get to crowchild, she rewarded me with a red bull, and 50 quest exp.
(I made up the last part)
Wow my mind is so unorganized. need to meditate more.
I should set a goal for a day. because i should make meditating a daily thing.
maybe 10 min before bed, yeah that sounds doable
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ok so I have the internet back now horay!!!
I ran for the bus this morning 7 blocks on kensington but still had some time to stop for coffee... no wait let me start from the beginning.
5:30am tune of zelda goes off from my phone and snooze button is hit
5:40am zelda, snooze
5:50am zelda, snooze
6:00am zelda, snooze but I get up this time and head for the bathroom where I go for a morning bong hoot
6:05am start getting dressed and ready and turn on computer for music insperation
6:10am zelda damn alarm is in my room oh look pot, one more bong hoot
6:15am realize that I need coffee and I have 10min to make it to bus stop with 7 blocks to cover.
and yes I made it to the bus in just the second of time with adding visine drops to my eyes
an excellent friday morning
I did nothing at work all day and listend to live carpenters guitar playing 4 of them from 11 to 12 and came home.
sup
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[22 Mar 2005|12:15pm] |
you are lightgoldenrodyellow
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Your dominant hues are red and green, so you're definately not afraid to get in and stir things up. You have no time for most people's concerns, you'd rather analyze with your head than be held back by some random "gut feeling".
Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working.
Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.
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| Ive broken onto frans computer ha ha |
[23 Jan 2005|11:04pm] |
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Sorry about my computer being dead but just because it is doesnt mean that you people can just ignore me I mean fuck I call you fuckers up just to chat or say hey and make sure your not dead you havent heard from me for a month and you think oh well thats one more friend down the drain, well fuck.
Anyway my computer is dead, I got a new job, I have to talk to my school, and I am here in calgary, Im trying to be gone in april and it would be nice to see or even hear from some of my friends before I go but if not then fuck you all.
Also there is no reason to respond to this as this is a once in a while thing breaking into the computer.
so if you have a problem call me 608 then my old number.
fuck.
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[12 Dec 2004|03:19pm] |
| You scored as True Neutral. A True Neutral person has two faces- either these people are merely apathetic, preferring to focus their minds on more important things, or these people truly believe in a balance of all things. To these people, there can be no light without some darkness. These people also have no dedication to, or intrinsic distrust of, laws.
Chaotic Good | | 70% | True Neutral | | 70% | Lawful Good | | 65% | Neutral Evil | | 60% | Neutral Good | | 50% | Chaotic Evil | | 45% | Lawful Evil | | 40% | Chaotic Neutral | | 35% | Lawful Neutral | | 25% | </td>
What is your Alignment?
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| To all who read my stuff |
[12 Dec 2004|02:58pm] |
www.machall.com
well soon im done school and that is cool i enjoyed it and cant wait to get back in april (fingers crossed) but untill then ive decided to start to live up to what potential all those people talk about in my past as I know now that i am not what i think i am, i am what i allow others to percive me as.
ill miss school but most of all the girls i gotta get some and soon soon (fingers crossed)
religions test tommorrow wicked
next test on saturday so mark im free ill call you later tonite and see what your up to.
also i need a windows operating system 98,2000, or xp would be nice but ill take anything right now.
ummm well call me anyone im a little stressed but talking to people would be cool.
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| Im a Superhero |
[27 Nov 2004|07:44pm] |
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Im still awake and it hurts but at least i ate
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[27 Nov 2004|05:17am] |
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I now think that I have insomnia. te he he he heh ehehehhehehjlkjflisadfjlkasdjgklasdgnklma'mgk'asdgl;asdgl;k'asdgl;gasdjkl;jiotgwer t /zw tg v jm/i3
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[26 Nov 2004|11:19pm] |
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I finally know what Travis talks about with just wanting to end it all, not in the suicidal sense but in the fact of suffering is reality and suffering sucks.
Ok new things
Heather a friend of mine in my mon, wed, fri classes. wait, pause first a older story
look to grade 11
math 20 mr. iforgets class I sat beside sarah ng and for my persistance upon being her friend I was rewarded with a pendant of friendship it was long brown string and old school celtic cross end story
about monday ago I gave this pendant to Heather as a symbol of friendship as far as I knew she was dating a frenchie named john or something so I thought I was safe with her as a friend.
today I found out she hasnt been dating john in a while and that she has gotten flowers once when she got cheated upon which is a bunk deal.
so heres the question do I get her a flower.
and do I chase her or is it not fair with me leaving, remember she is a good girl and I dont want to hurt her or anyone for that matter.
also side note I have the bad choda and I must kill my anus
thank you for your time my friends and I would like a little advise even though you people are the suck at women you are the best bet for me cause I love you and have no one else.
Help
PS
mark I had a insight in palladium games the fantasy rpg and I think that sdc and hp go down at the same rate ie. if i hit and do 10 damage thats 10 sd and 10 hp hurting the armor and the person if of course i hit the ar thingie. wanna check it out for me if you get a chance i think im right.
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| The sway of Ms. Mary |
[26 Nov 2004|01:16am] |
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Ok there are quite a few things that have been going on in my life up to this point so a brief overview then I will start stating goals and promises that I can't possible hold up to then feeling bad about that will start to brag about how good I am at some sort of skill.
OVERVIEW
-Smoking quite a bit now but planning to stop for school in January
-Have been smoking with Joey (my sisters boyfriend) and now he doesnt seem like a tard (dammit Mary).
-At school only been doing it really on Thursdays and Tuesdays
-Gives me a sense of feeling that there is somebody out there to enable me to not be lonely
-Been thinking about a Girl at school that I just want to be friends with
-I dont know whats going on but myself wants me to get laid badly Its stupid retarded now and I cant do anything about it
-I miss sex and having somebody to hold all night (not in that order though)
-Been seeing Russ at school all the time now I dont mind the guy in small doses but thats not what Im getting
-I miss Jeff, Will, Mark, Trav, James, Bennett, Mark B., and Ben
-I dont know If I can go on half the time
-I need to get my finances together for school in Toronto but I am accepted
-My sister is trying to be my mom
-I need my drivers
-I dont know if im smart enough to do this video game design and Im scared to hell
-Im trying to avoid people so that people will forget about me and not be hurt when I leave (this post will help obviously)
-Im constantly battling between sober alex and wasted alex
-had a wisdom tooth removed
-need 2 root canals
Sober Alex
-Better Memory
-Needs sex bad
-likes to work out
-buddhist
-socially inert
Wasted Alex
-Funny
-Spiritual
-decent social standing at school
-lazy
-outgoing
so who am I?
What do I feel bad about
-doing nothing to help Tibet and her people
-watching aids and war destroy millions of people in africa
-inaction and fear of ce la femme (whatever i dont speak french but I apologize to any who do)
-not spending enough time with friends that care for me
-allowing my self-isolation
-not being able to afford pesents for christmas
Positive feel better stuff
-Im a wicked climber
-Im working out a little more
-Im starting to get organized
Misc
-I dont think I like myself and I think that all of you are fuckers who cant make real friends so forget me.
From
-Someone who trys to understand
Sorry
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So I have had a tooth ache for the last couple of days and went to the dentist today and he gave me something called T3's and they seem to work really good, any way 2 of my teeth have to come out one of them wisdom and then I need a root canal done he he. Oh well when I heard this I was like "take em all I dont fuckin need them".
Im coming to Airdire for sure this weekend so trav or mark ill call you somethime soon
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| Stolen Test from James |
[09 Nov 2004|03:18pm] |
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1. Are you male or female?: Dark Rider, Pool Shark
2. Describe yourself: Out of Range, Same in the End
3. How do some people feel about you?: Poker Face, Hope
4. How do you feel about yourself?: Shatterproof, Ain't no Prophet
5. Describe an old girlfriend/boyfriend/interest: Lady Venom, New Realization
6. Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend/interest: Temptation, Wrong Way
7. Where would you rather be?: Anthrax Island (?), Lets go get stoned
8. Where are you?: Deep End, Waiting for my Ruca
9. Describe what you want to be: Freak Fantastic, Were only going to die from our own Arrogance
10. Describe how you live: Bless & Destroy, Smoke two Joints
11. Describe how you love: Bottle Rocket, Caress me Down
12. Share a few words of wisdom: Long Way Down, Don't Push
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[22 Oct 2004|02:58pm] |
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Today I have had no drugs or booze or caffine, and I dont feel normal you know.
Anyway I have offically applied to the International Academy of Technology and Design in Toronto for January.
I have to have a portfolio ready in less then a week (... insane i be in my own mind we see?) I would greatly appriciate anybody who knows anybody or is willing themselves to show me how to work photoshop, 3d studio max, or milkshape, if you can help me I will spare no expense to accomodate you, just please help me.
Thats right I stardog am asking for help anybody please help me.
As far as Jen goes I dont think that I will be trying to attain the poontang from her as I see her more as a friend but damn do I want to get laid.
Umm whatelse has happened?
Oh yes Trav I have tryed calling you but to no avail the phone seems to be constantly in use at your base (so call me).
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| Im almost 30 and what have I accomplished |
[18 Oct 2004|03:36pm] |
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Ok so as you people who read this know, I really dont know what to do with my life. While recently I have been thinking to what I did want to do with my career and what my career goals were when I was a little younger. My point is I fully trust myself even if it is me in the past but I also know that I am part crazy. So anyway Ive been thinking about becoming a Video Game Designer and I want to know from you people, travis and mark inparticular is that something that you can see me doing and doing well in?
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| My God status has ended. |
[15 Oct 2004|03:39pm] |
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Why cant I play games and win anymore? Billiards, people want to fight me so I gave it up a week or two into school and it was fine, now video games I used to be 3rd in Calgary what the hell happened to me? Ive made a list to follow to get my game godhood back.
How to gain almost equal to me in video game godhood
-Celebacy (no whack or sex (if only))
-No Drugs (caffine is not a drug)
-Healthy Eating (coffee and cola are healthy)
-Travis's workout thingie
-6 hours of video games a day 10 on weekend or holiday
-school work and studing
PS
Long is a differnt story he can just kick so much ass its hard not to win when you use him
BLOODY ROAR
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| Creature of my Mind |
[14 Oct 2004|07:52pm] |
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So I dont know what is wrong with me, I think it is in part due to my isolation a little while ago, I mean I was alone for a long time and I think I got used to it. I say this all because my Dad and Fran are here, since last week wednesday, and are not going now untill monday or tuesday. I cant take it too much longer they pester me and pester me and pester me and I am definately going to snap and if I am here for this weekend I cannot garuntee my not being hauled off for murder or assult with a turkey. My problems with them so far...
-Alex are you studying, do you have any homework?
-My answer in my head. Fuck off you havent been there for the last 21 yrs dont try to get involved in what I want to do alone now.
-Alex did you clean your room/bathroom?
-Fuck off, it is my bedroom what the hell are you doing going in there and the same is said about my bathroom.
-They get a new meal every night. There are so many left overs. They wonder why I eat so little.
-This bugs me cause its waste pure and simple. There really is no room in the fridge. I eat the leftovers when I get hungary, not that I dislike eating but fuck I dont need that much food while poeple starve, its sick.
-If me and my father were american (god forbid) I would be a democrat and he would be a republican.
-you can see the arguments about religion and politics turning to some heated words.
-My dad has a plan to be with the one he loves and yet he doesnt understand that love is all there is and he should do what he can to be with her.
-Solution: it involves the pigs lets just keep it at that
-Alex why arent you banging grils you arent a fag are you?
-Fuck I hate myself sometimes because I cannot hate my dad, something is wrong in my head.
So in other words that is my homelife for the last week and I think that I am crazy now there never was a going phase its just pure crazy now.
Well lets see oh there is Jen. Jen... that is a subject that I have no clue about I know she was born in febuary and I looked it up she is either a aquarius or a picies if it is picies then I think there is chemistry if it is aquarius then I am content to be friends, I keep getting mixed signals oh well maybe she will call me? maybe I need to learn more about her?
School=Midterms of Death (nuf said)
Anyways started playing FF7 to get in mood for advent children I think I will use Cid but I am not sure for a third character I want somebody who can cast spells well and has good to decent limits any advice?
Again to any of those who care for grammer and spelling *slap* sorry about it.
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[10 Oct 2004|03:08pm] |
did anyone else know that Joss Whedon might be directing the 3rd x-man movie?
im talking to you mark.
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| spiderman... spiderman...(stares deeply into space) |
[29 Sep 2004|08:22pm] |
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I dont get it I meet a very nice girl with sensable ambitions a interesting personality and a cute body and what happens "oh yeah spiderman is one of my obsessions my room is covered in spiderman" (and so is her truck). Do I look like peter fucking parker I dont fucking know but why spiderman. spiderman I love you but I got some bad connotations about you bud.
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